Found out the other day that I 100% do not have cancer, it has been a worry for about a month. I have a rare skin condition that has to do with my blood over producing white blood cells, and it makes me at a higher risk to get cancer. It shows up on my skin as these ugly spots. For 3 months we had no idea what it was. but I found out about a month ago that it is called “Lymphomatoid Papulosis”, if affects 1-2 out of 1 million people. such bad luck. It is said that I will have more spots in the winter, and have less spots in the summer, but essentially I will have these spots at some point for the rest of my life. Right now they are all pretty much gone, but when they heal it leaves a dark spot kind of scar on my skin. So I’m stuck with those. I have kind of accepted it by now, still bothers me to look at myself in a mirror for too long, but I’ve tried to accept it. It has given me a new appreciation for my life. I’m not happy with my weight, I can change that. I’m not happy with my marks at school, I can change that. I’m not happy with my habits around working out and keeping my life on track, I can change that. I need to keep my focus on looking at the positives in my life and not allowing it to control me. I can’t change my skin condition, so I need to accept it, move on, and try and do things that make me happy and more confident in my appearance in other ways.